Diary of Little Things & Curiosities

I want to introduce you to some of my friends! And, not just blog friends (though those are wonderful too) but people that have been a part of my real everyday life, and who have saved my life with their words and presence more times than I can count.

Because they are fabulous & full of talent & you should follow them, too!


S h e ...
first blog I check every morning, not just my soul mate but the other half of my soul, parallel lives, curly hair, nothing halfway, green eyes, writer, celeb-gossip know it all, french, says her name is "grace" at starbucks, diet coke addict, endlessly giving, giggle, selfless, chicaaahgo accent, straight a's, 'just something about that girl' sparkle.

once said ...

"when i love things, i really love them.
this includes everything from people to movies to foods.
and i really feel it, too. it's never that sort of detached, comfortable love. it's always an intense, through-my-body sort of love, even when it's love for, say, "saved by the bell." ... you think i'm kidding."

now go on and fall in love with her too.

Eternal Summer: Remember This?


It's incredible to realize that while I was living in San Diego's eternal summer, fall was already on its way back here in Oregon. It begins to come in on the cold winds the first week of September, the same week I used to migrate south for the winter (and school year) .

The leaves, the smells & the colors seem like something wholly new and different. I may have lived for 18 years with an experience of fall, but I was never old enough to appreciate it. I guess you do a lot of learning when you are away in college - and not just about philosophy and economics. But about little things, and changes, and how to appreciate the little things because they change so quickly.


(photo) on film with my pentax k1000, and developed on matte Ilford paper.


Magnolia | On Coincidence

"It is in the humble opinion of this narrator that this is not just "something that happened." This cannot be "one of those things..." This, please, cannot be that. This was not a matter of chance.

Oh, these strange things happen all the time."

Paul Thomas Anderson, Magnolia

"This Had to Have Ended Badly"

Sometimes Thursdays seem like the longest day of the week. Maybe it's the anticipation of the weekend? Maybe it's knowing you will be hung-over at school or work tomorrow thanks to Thirsty-Thursday activities?
Whatever it is, I hope this photo of my roommate Dana (edited 'football replay style') makes you laugh, and makes your Thursday through before you know it

Dave Eggers | (Potentially) Pure at Heart


My heart is pure. I know what you're thinking. I know what I mean.
Dave Eggers, A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genious

Coffee Talk : Mud & Moving On

St: "The dust is settling. And soon it will be all settled - and just be mud."


S: "And mud is where lotus flowers grow from. That's when something beautiful and new will come from all of this."


(image) C. Sebastian



--
* My day in 6 words: I'm learning how to say sorry.

Coffee Talk : Perspective

St: "Something is going to grow from this the same way something grew out of all you lost in your past love relationships. This is an inch. It's this big. Compared to the long line of your whole life - which is this big and getting bigger. That small part doesn't change all the love and trust you had for them before. And look how big that is next to this tiny little inch. It's greater. This small part in my hands feels huge right now because you are living it. But farther down the line you will realize how small it was."

S: "All i wanted was to be seen that same way. To have this be measured against who i've been for the rest of my life. Just once."

St: "If that's what you want then do the same. You can't just stop trusting or having friends. You never stopped believing in love even when you're heart was broken into a thousand pieces."

S: "And i never stopped loving those people either."

(image) Irem Dogan

Mary Carolyn Davies | On Love


There is a strong wall about me to protect me:
It is built of the words you have said to me.
Mary Carolyn Davies, No Bliss Like This Anthology

to Hear You on the Line


S: ".. and i just keep thinking about how I'm going to feel when this all goes away."

J: "What you need to know is that the belief that 'happiness is fleeting' is cultural. We are taught that. When really happiness is bountiful. Happiness is lasting and it's everywhere."


(image) Francoise Hardy

Jose Gonzales | Stifling


What is all comes down to is recycling stifling trivialities

Jose Gonzales {altered slightly to perfectly describe my anxiety.}

Dave Eggers | These Three


"We are unusual and tragic and alive."

Dave Eggers, A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius

Peace & Posies

I want to introduce you to some of my friends! And, not just blog friends (though those are wonderful too) but people that have been a part of my real everyday life, and who have saved my life with their words and presence more times than I can count.

Because they are fabulous & full of talent & you should follow them, too!

 Meet Cassy at Peace & Posies

S h e ...
Passionate, vintage studio apartment behind a cafe, deep-feeling, exuberant, watercolors, curious like her kitty-cat, books, feels angry, spontaneous, sprightly, earrings & boho-style, recent redhead, photographer, Berkeley, love at first sight, soul twin.

once said ...

"If it weren't for you I would have never had the strength to leave you."

Her blog is full of some of the most delicate, girlie, and beautiful photo's you will find.

now go on and fall in love with her too.

Happiness as you Spin Along


"Pedal your blues away,
you’ll find love in every by-way."
cheap suit serenaders
--
* this picture is from my company labor day picnic, and it sums the day up in a picture (well, actually this picture makes it appear as if i went to a pants-less wine tasting, not quite accurate.) But it was fab. 

(image) on film with my vintage pentax, labor day

Affirmation of the Morning

The person that you are is independent of other's opinion on the person that you are. Your intentions are always clear to you, and when they are misinterpreted it does not change the fact that you acted with good in mind and are making the world a better place by doing so.

this is for you to read and say out loud until you believe it.
If you needed this today, you're welcome - and I needed this today too.

The Star-Light Begins



"I dont know where the sunbeams end and the star-light begins. It's all a mystery."
The Flaming Lips - Fight Test
(the only song i've listened to for a week. Dana is probably real tired of hearing it)

(image) on film my vintage Pentax, Dana's room

The Beauty of the Pessimist

I want to introduce you to some of my friends! And, not just blog friends (though those are wonderful too) but people that have been a part of my real everyday life, and who have saved my life with their words and presence more times than I can count.

Because they are fabulous & full of talent & you should follow them, too!


S h e ...
Oregonian, sarcastic, drives a Jetta, soul-mate of mine, barista-beauty, inspired the character of Cornelia in Marisa De Los Santos' novels, loyal, lives at the coast in solitude, private, a radical feminist, skin like coffee icecream, hates goodbyes, pixie haircut, learning to forgive.

once said ...

"I do not regret sending my truths to him, but I also do not need to keep apologizing for myself. I need to throw myself forward and create a future that I won't need to say sorry for. Because it is about god damn time."

now go on and fall in love with her too.

Samuel Beckett | On Trial and Error

"ever tried. ever failed. no matter. try again. fail again. fail better."
Samuel Beckett

Back to School

Had I not graduated from college last June. I would be going back to School today. So instead, starting today, I'm taking myself back to school starting with


(1) Reading the Newspaper everyday.
and highlighting it and taking notes with [ brackets ]




Obviously, I did a good job of this today considering the most relevant thing I found was this cartoon about writers block. My professors back in the Communications Studies department would call that salience.

Aftermath of Obliteration of Eternity *

{ * also a great potential title for a book about a breakup. }

I love installation art - it is my favorite kind. ( see: my absolute adoration of Brainforest and Field of Light )

So this exhibition by Yayoi Kasuma just does it for me. It's described as "In a dark void, a delicate, shimmering mirage unfolds around the viewer, a myriad of gleaming lights that reproduce and reflect endlessly upon eachother in gold silence."

As writers we try ceaselessly to create a world for people to find: to plot its dimensions, it's aesthetic , its atmosphere. Installation art takes this desire and makes it tangible. It not only creates it in the mind of the person experiencing it but also in sight. When I struggle to find the words, when i can't make my writing feel I yearn, rather, to make it real.


p.s Did I mention Yayoi is 80 years old? I too, am going to be an awesome old(er) lady some day.

Bon Weekend, mon chers!

Darling Readers,

As I'm sure you've noticed posting is always a bit light Friday through Sunday, and that's because my rather new boyfriend has yet to find out about my dirty little blogging secret. I'm sure I will tell him sooner or later, or maybe not. My roommate Dana said yesterday "Every girl has a skeleton in her closet. Most have so many I'm surprised they don't cough up bones when they speak." ha!

I don't have too many of those skeletons, but mine happens to be covered in words and feelings in html code.


E works in Hood River during the week and is home at our little "two-free-birds-one-lovenest" bedroom on the weekends, so i get a bit distracted.

Anyways - I'm off to the Colombia River Gorge this weekend to visit him and his family

Tonight is 'First Friday': a thing they do in Hood River where all the local businesses stay open late and show art and serve wine ect. E's parents own a winebar which we helped open earlier this year so it will be a fun night.

Fall has rolled in and it's getting chilly. I don't own a single thing with long sleeves (not one thing. it stops a 3/4) so i'll be interested to see what i find to wear.



(image) my vintage Pentax, last time i was up at the Gorge.

Dave Eggers | On the Big Questions


Then the big questions become: who to fight? & who to love? &, most importantly, when to leave? Oh, Brother, when to leave!
Dave Eggers, A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius

Happy 22nd Birthday Jessi!


On this day last year we spent the afternoon at the rooftop pool at The Ivy Hotel in San Diego, drinking champagne & elderflower in our bathrobes in a private cabana.

Then we went back to 'The Star Suite' in the hotel, made ourselves pretty (well Jessi got pretty, and pretty nauseous ... classic 21er), played on the king sized bunk beds, went to dinner and then straight to bed.

I wish more than anything it was one year ago today, and i could be with my bestfriend & her dog, Jackson.

I don't even need The Ivy. I would be content with Motel6, as long as she was there.

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